by Jacqui Crumrine – associate pastor, worship and arts
Have you ever felt like someone was spying on you? You could just feel it? Watching your every move. Listening to your every word.
I know someone is watching me. Actually, there are at least four people watching me. My every move, my every word. Being the mother of four children, I am very aware of how my words and actions have influence. I was reminded of this one particular morning when my children were much younger. Needing to do a little prep for worship, I picked up my guitar while everyone else was busy with their morning routine. I sang a few verses and choruses and put my guitar away. It was only for a moment as my task shifted to helping little ones get ready for the day.
A little while later, I hear in the other room, my three-year-old belting out the song I had just played through. She knew every word, sang it pretty well, and danced around oblivious to my listening ears. I peeked around the corner to soak it in. It was one of the most beautiful things that I’ve ever heard.
“Where you go, I’ll go. Where you stay, I’ll stay. When you move, I’ll move. I will follow you. I will follow you.”
Of course, it’s a worship song, intended to be sung to only One. But her words struck me. Unbeknownst to me, she was following me. Moving with me. Acting like me. Worshiping like me? Loving like me? Serving like me? It made me so aware of the many times that I had probably failed to be a good example. Were they also selfish like me? Stubborn? Lazy? Distracted? Oh…how many times I have failed. It stuck in my heart that day.
I don’t want my kids to be like me.
I want them to be like Jesus.
I will admit my faults and share my strengths, and I will constantly point their eyes beyond me to Jesus.
Being a Pastor, there are even more sets of eyes, and sometimes the pressure is even more because adults have no problem telling you how you measure up (good or bad), which makes it even more necessary that I keep my eyes on Christ and keep pointing people to Him. Don’t follow me, focus on Jesus!
Recently I was reading through Acts chapter 3…it’s one of my favorites. Peter. Remember Peter? The awkward, bumbling, foot-in-his-mouth disciple that denied Jesus three times? Well, Peter is transformed by Spirit. He’s just not the same man. In Acts 3, he has healed a man crippled from birth and begins to address the crowd boldly. In verse 12 he says, “People of Israel…why stare at us as though we had made this man walk by our own power or godliness?”
You see what he did there? Even after he had just performed a miracle, he redirected their eyes, past himself, to “the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob” and to Jesus. Peter figured it out. It wasn’t about being in the spot-light or being evaluated. It was, and always will be, about helping people focus on Jesus.
If there is anything in my life that is good, I pray that you see Jesus.
Where I am weak, I pray that you see Jesus at work.
Where I fail, I pray that you’ll forgive me, and point me to Jesus.
I will do the same for you.
Focus on Jesus. Will you help others do the same?
“Therefore since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sing that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith” Hebrews 12:1-2